Life Rants

Today I'm going to get my Senior pictures done. I'm growing up too fast!! It's almost scary, I don't know what real life is, is there like a book I can read? Advice on how to provide for yourself, feed yourself, live by yourself...

I don't think I could live by myself. I'll need like a room mate or something; I've seen way too many horror movies where there's a psychopath in a house somewhere or some other supernatural creature stalking down it's potential meal. Nope, not me, I'm gonna have a room mate.

I don't know why I'm worrying so much, I can just live at home for a while... But that's kind of the deal, I don't want to. I want my own place but I don't want to pay for it. But everyone wants that, so not much chance of getting my way.

I can't decide whether I worry too much or not enough. I know I always have a place at my house, but I want to get out on my own... Sort of. Like every other college student, I'll probably bring my laundry home on the weekends, ask my mom to run some home cooked stuff to my dorms if she's got time, ask for money when I wasted what I had on a late night ice cream run...

Yeah... Typical college student. I guess I'm lucky? is that the word? I'm going (or hoping to go) to a college that's only about half an hour away. Maybe some kids are dying to get out of their town, state, side of the country, whatever. But I wouldn't last very long being miles and miles away from my mom. I feel better when I know someone in my family is close by. In case something happens. Maybe when I'm married or whatever I can let that abnormal feeling go.

And that brings on another issue. When I was little, no, like last year, I thought getting married would grant me the golden elixir that was freedom. I was so ready to find my knight in shining armor and ride off into the artificial sunset of happiness and love ever after. About as fake as a tanning booth. I'm not saying there isn't someone out there, that's not for me to say. I'll believe it if the good Lord decides to inform me of the unhappy business, but until then I'll believe that somewhere among the swarm of ant-like people on the intoxicated earth, there's a young man gliding gloriously about with invisible wings attatched. And I'm not saying marriage is for suckers, cuz I'm a big sucker, but what I am saying is that the little naive girl fantasy of marriage fixing everything and granting eternal happiness is incredibly stupid. End of story.

So first comes the Senior pictures. Then comes graduation. Then comes getting a job for the summer, OR playing away my last summer of freedom... I'll decide on that later. Then comes the looming doom of college. I hear different things about college, I hear one side saying it's so much better than high school, that I'll have a blast. The other side says... The exact opposite. That I'm dead where I stand, if I'm not brilliant I don't stand a chance.

I hear a little voice saying "You're screwed."

Merry two days after Christmas!

Oh boy! My Christmas was great, I hope everyone else's was too.

We went and saw cousins, and Bradley drove.

I take such good pictures, huh? (Joke.)

Guess what I gottttttt??

It's gorgeous.

I got an iPod Touch. It's my baby.

Logan got all jealous when I said that but I told him I liked him better.............................

We'll let him believe that.....

No I'm totally kidding.

.....

Amy! It was good to see her on Christmas. She's so goofy, I've said this before.

Dinner was so yummy. Turkey and rolls, mac n cheese and devilled eggs, so good!

My Uncle Levi even brought "Holiday Conversation Prompt Cards".

Yep, we used them. It was pretty interesting. My family is so nutty, I love it. I'm never bored when my hugemongo family is around.

Oh special story here. So those four ladies up there, including myself, are the only women in my huge family of 14. (Cousins, uncles, etc.) My Grandma, Auntie Barbara, cousin Amy, and me.

So this Christmas, my Papa got all of us personalized necklaces, and a gorgeous silver box that came with it.

He started this with just a little speech and he almost started crying, which is really rare. My Papa never cries. But here's what he said:

"In my life, I have precious things like gold and silver, and that's my family. But I also have diamonds, which are the women in my life. This is to remind you that you're a diamond."

I love my Papa so much, all four of us ladies were crying when he gave them out.

Best present ever.

We made a mess on Christmas Day.

My Dad was explaining something of utmost importance.

Our house on Christmas Eve.

He's real! I saw him!

Now, just New Year's to go.

Party hearty.

One Day To Go!

Christmas is one day away! Well... If you count Christmas Eve as Christmas like I do, it's only a day away. If not, then you have two more days to go, ha ha!

I'm just kidding. For the last few days I haven't really been doing Christmas-y activities... I made some Christmas cookies, and I eat Christmas colored M&Ms every day!

And I decorated my tree, I might have already talked about that... Oh well. If these pictures have already been used, my bad. I wasn't paying attention.

These ones I know I haven't posted yet. I went to Seattle a couple days ago to go shopping and see the movie Tron (failure). I didn't like the movie that much, and I wasn't aware it was a sequel till after. But while waiting for the movie, my family went to the Seattle Pacific Science Center.

Coolest place ever!

When I was a little girl, and I'd come here, I'd be so awe struck all the time, at everything I saw. They have this Children's Forest thing and I would go play in it and slide down "waterfalls" and explore caves... I'm too big for it now. This makes me sad. I'm still a little girl....

My baby cousin, Amy, wanted to explore the giant guitar too. Isn't she cute?

I missed her!

My brother has recently obtained muscles. Every chance he gets, he tries to show me how manly he is now. I just happened to get a picture of him showing off the toughened meat on his arms. Lovely.

Oh I love Seattle! I was walking around today and it was raining and I just felt like the city was the best place ever. And you see so many different people! It's fun to see other people's fashions, and how they carry themselves. I like to catch little snippets of conversation and try to guess what they're talking about.

As I was walking off the ferry, there was a homeless man sitting under the overpass, and that got me thinking. You think your life is bad? Look at his. No family, no home, not even a proper place to sleep. Until you're living on the streets, your life isn't that bad.

I tried to get into the Christmas spirit and gave him all the change in my pockets.

I know you're not supposed to give homeless people money but look at it this way:

He's not going to buy meth with coins.

He's not going to buy alcohol with coins.

He's not going to pay a hooker with coins. (Uncomfortable.)

So, no harm in coins.

I love Seattle at night. Yeah it's kind of scary, but there's good people out there, too. If people would believe in that as much as they do in Santa Clause, there really would be peace on Earth.

And good will towards men.

Merry Almost-Christmas!

Midnight Fairy Ball and Turbulent Flights

I had one heck of a Friday night. There was a dance, the Midnight Fairy Tale Ball, and then my epic journey across a couple states. But dance details first!

Girl's choice. Guess who I asked?

Logan, of course. I really like this kid, he's very grand. On the right is his sister, Sam and her boyfriend, Danny. They're both very funny, last night was the first time I really talked to Danny, and he is a very very funny young man.

"I'ma tie you to the back of my horse and drag you a quarter mile."

Just a quote from Danny, that was one of the funniest moments out of the whole night.

And this is my group of awesome people.

It goes: Danny and Sam.

Logan and me.
Will and Kylee.

Sina and Jeremy.

Quick story about Jeremy: He has a business face.
That's Jeremy's business face. I call it his Creeper Face.

We started talking about how people stereotype Idahoans, because apparently we all sit on our porches with shotguns and beers and yell at kids that touch our lawns.

Jeremy had something to add to this, he said that instead of beer, he would drink "fine wine" in hopes that that would refine the hick-vision.

We had a very fun time laughing our heads off at that.

"Ethel!! Bring the shotgun, the school bus is here!"

I like to take random quick pictures of people when they're not looking. Sometimes it works out, other times....Not so much. But I don't believe in embarrassing pictures under any circumstances, so I only keep the ones that are pretty or cute.
Sina looks a little surprised, yes? And Logan, as always, is prepared for the camera. I'm so jealous!

Kylee. She's so pretty! I loved her dress. And we had dinner at her house, her mom was SO nice and helped us make dinner (Ok, she made it all), and cleaned up after us.

I made sure we all said THANK YOU!

Will! He's a funny character. He and Kylee are together, they're very cute.

Last night was soo fun. The girls made dinner for the guys, fettuccine and salad, with garlic bread and ice cream for dessert. I haven't laughed so hard in a while, everyone was telling jokes and being silly, it was a great night.

And an added plus, I actually could fit into my dress!! I've had it for 4 years, and never worn it, except when I tried it on for the first time....and 4 years later it still fits. Brownie points to me.

I think I look a little too excited in this picture... Almost scary.

What do you think?
But I still think it's a good picture, Logan balances it out ;)

These are my girls. Kylee isn't in this picture cuz she was getting her hair ready, but she's there in thought.

Sam, me and Sina. (I did Sina's make up.)

The night was a success, but it definitely ended too soon.

I had to be home at 1 AM, to get my suitcase and catch my shuttle down to Salt Lake City airport at 2:20. I slept most of the way, but it wasn't comfortable at all.

Then once I got to the airport I stood in line to get my boarding pass, got through security, and right before I went through the metal detector, I saw an old friend! She was heading home to Washington, too. I see this as a major blessing in disguise because I had been so worried I would get lost in that big airport and she had been through it before so she helped me find the right gate. I'm so grateful!

Then, on the plane, I slept most of the time again... Then the turbulence came....

Scary stuff right there.

But I finally touched down on Washington soil and now I'm here. Christmas is soon, and I get to decorate another tree, and go Christmas shopping and wrap presents, and make cookies, and listen to music, two whole weeks of freedom!!!

Have a great week everyone :)

Fa ra ra ra ra!

Rockin' around the Christmas tree

At the Christmas party hop.

Mistletoe hung where you can see,

Every couple tries to stop.

.......

Everyone's dancing merrily,

In the new old-fashioned way.

I hope everyone has a wonderful week, the one leading up to Christmas, it's the most suspenseful week out of the whole year.

This Friday I'm getting on a bus down to Salt Lake City, then getting on a plane to Washington to see my Dad and family for Christmas. I'm excited for everything after the bus and plane ride.

Tis the season to be jolly...

Fa la la la la...

Best Things of My Day.

I like finding interesting snowy things. Like icicles!! I saw this and I had to take a picture of it. I think it's upside down, but oh well.

My little Scotty!! He's getting so big and so silly! The other night we were up in my room and he was running all over and suddenly he jumped on my toes and tried to start a wrestling match. It was so cute. And last night he was running around again and he ran head on into a door!!

I'm sorry to say that I about died laughing.

Lillie. Need I say more? She'd brighten pretty much anyone's day.

See? Just smile.

My best friend! Logan! He's so sweet! I won't go on about it too much, but he's very awesome.

These are just a few of the things in my daily life that make it better!

I hope everyone, no matter how down they are, can always find something to be happy about.

Try it. It works.

T.L.C

This is just a quick post.

To anyone who reads this, I ask you to say a quick, hearfelt prayer for all those experiencing heartbreak. A person very dear to me is going through a very very hard time right now, and I know she could use all the support she can possibly get.

Thank you.

Happy Turkey Destruction and Consumption Day!

Oh I love Thanksgiving!! The food is my favorite! (Isn't it everyone's?)

I couldn't help but take a few pictures of all the freaking delicious food I got to eat.

My mom went all out this year. So good! I'm so so so so full. Delicious stuff right there.

The only thing I would change about this year is I would have all my family together. My parents are divorced, so my family is kind of torn in half...

And every other Holiday I spend with my Dad. Last year I had Thanksgiving with him, so this year it was with Mom, and for Christmas I'll be with my Dad in Washington!

Today I got to talk to my family in Washington. I was on the phone for over an hour, and I didn't even talk to everyone. I got to talk to my cousin Amy!
She's so silly. "Om nom nom!"

The mac 'n cheese was my favorite thing all day!!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Remember to thank all those who do the little things, big things, silly things, and important things for you!

Like, teachers, parents, siblings, the mailman, the lady at the check out, even someone who opens your door for you!
They all have names, they all have feelings, thoughts, ideas, dreams, disappointments, and they all have bad days!!

And maybe your simple little 'thank you' will make the difference between a good or bad day.

Think about it :)

Me.

I owe everything I am to my Mom. And my family. They have made me, shaped me, carved me, molded me, and loved me.

Even when I'm a brat.

I love my Mom! As all young girls should! In fact, it shouldn't change even when you get older. Even when you're 35 and have a family of your own, the love you have for your Mom should be the same as it was when you were 2 years old, and asked her opinion on everything.

I love my crazy wacky absurdly loud family. And they're goofy too! They give me so many headaches, but I love them so much anyway. Katie, the dark haired one, is a spitfire! She's almost just like me when I was little. I say almost cuz there's no way I was that annoying ;)


I love to daydream. I love thinking about what might happen, what could have happened, what should have, what I can make happen, and what will happen.

I love just laying in the grass and looking up at the stars, clouds, sunsets, trees, anything.

I'm a dreamer.

You didn't know this but... I'm also secretly a hopeless romantic.

It's true!!

I love the thought of love. I love the little kid love, the kind where they meet in the sandbox and are best friends for the rest of their lives; the love where eyes lock from across the room and are fixed and never waver for the rest of their seeing life.

Oh I love Love stories.

One day, I'll be everything I want to be. I'll reach up, reach out, and be everything I've ever wanted to be.

"Let your light so shine forth towards the children of men, that they may see thy good works and glorify thy Father which is heaven."

I will be an actress, and love my job.

I will be a painter, and find inspiration in everything I see.

I will be a photographer, and will be able to capture the most precious moments.

I will be a mother, and raise my children hopefully the same way my Mother raised me.

I will be the best person I can be.

I will remember all those who made me who I am.

I am forever grateful to them, and I love my cousin!!

And even though I might get discouraged sometimes, maybe because I compare myself to others too much, or I underestimate myself, I will still try.
That is a beautiful quality in anyone. Even if you think you suck at drawing (me), or singing, or whatever your passions are, don't ever give them up; because they are your passions.
You have to work at them maybe, but do what you love!!
This world would be so beautiful if people followed their real dreams.